Tomorrow is ultra and i could not be more excited! this weekend is sure to be fun and interesting. then on monday i will be a year older. I'm not so sure about this whole aging thing, i realize I'm only going to be 20, but i cant help but feel time is already escaping me! there is so much i want to do with my life, but at the same time i don't want to spend my life planning, live in the moment. I need a trip to the beach at night so i can look up at the stars and feel miniscule once again.

purple sky and bloodred clouds roll over the soft grey sand. the heavy transfixing primal beats permeate the night sky entrancing the soul, and inspiring the body. A blanket of soft silver moon blesses everything it kisses. we cleanse our energy and bask in the energy of the universe. we feel so small but simoltaiously connected to the beauty of everything that surrounds us. once again we are revitalzed to follow our vision, or even find a better vision for our future.

the beach

today was relaxing

no school
no work
no practice
no promoting

i had a day to myself! i decided to lay out on the beach a while. It was beautiful out, the sun was bright and hot but the cool breeze made it so pleasant. As I lounged and read i couldn't help catching people staring at my tattoos every now and then. usually unless I'm in a bathing suit people don't even realize i have tattoos but i dont like the reaction i get from most people, people need to open up there minds. I did not let it affect me for more than a few moment though, back into the exception, which although terribly slow and some parts dull is a pretty intresting book.

only at outback

So I was at work it was a bust Friday night and like most bust Friday nights around 7:30 there are a lot of older people going there to enjoy dinner. Walkers lined several of our walls and when they slowly start disappearing we think nothing of it, one of our many customers has finished their meal and taken their walker before they leave. There was only one walker left. A women came back up and asked what happened to her husbands walker, i had just came back up to the hostess stand from being in the kitchen rolling silverware. The only walker left in the restaraunt was not his this man was about 6'3" and this walker was much to small for this man. understandably this man and his family were very upset. My managers ended up having to almost carry this man out of the restaraunt and to his car. Who would steal someones walker? considering the size difference they must have noticed the difference.

Don't drink to forget you'll forget to stop drinking

Friday night, i decide to head over to Churchills pub after i get off work to listen to my friends band play, and maybe knock back a couple drinks. I arrived, found my friends, and started chugging vodka straight from the bottle, blue berry vodka so the bite was minimal. Bad idea, i am too old to be making that mistake, but alas i was sad,and at that particular point and time envious of god knows what. So i decided to drink, have fun and forget the momentary pain i was in. All was well, my friends performance was great, i had a blast, then it happened i took the chug that put me over the edge. I was done with.

Well i think i learned my lesson, "Don't drink to forget, you'll forget to stop drinking"

next time I'm down I'll just read and smoke some bud let myself unwind