the bass

Last night, was definitely a night to remember. Breaks, Dubstep, and Drum and Bass all night. The night began walking through the doors and being denied entrance. I am a very determined person so i said the magic words that aren't necessarily true "I'm a dancer" after that i was not hassled for anything as trivial as an ID. The bass runs through my skin and into my veins, sometimes dancing to a good beat is better than sex. A few DJ's, and drinks later the main act is up AK1200 my friend (who really is a dancer) uses the pulsing beat as her muse, she puts on an amazing show to accent the music. The night is danced away in the room made warm and humid by sweating bodies, all beacause of THE BASS.

one step closer

I never thought i would enjoy going to school. When i was in high school, even in middle school and elementary school i never wanted to go. Throughout high school i never thought i wanted to go to collage. Thanks to my ex-boyfriend i realized that it is unfortunately very hard to get anywhere in life without at least an AA. I took a little bit over a year off of school and then enrolled in my first semester of school. Although it has only been a few days of classes i actually enjoy going to school now. Maybe its because i am now paying for my classes, maybe its because i know I'm doing something good for myself, more than likely its a combination. I am so happy that i actually enjoy going to school, i feel like its taking me a step closer to achieving my goals and making my dreams come true.

constantly mis-judged

The fetish scene, just hearing those words will conjour images of kinky unsafe sex for the unknowing masses. Not only sex but higher risk behaviors. This is not necisarily true. I work for a fetish company and intercourse is not the main attraction, nor is it what the club is made for. Do some people have sex at fetish parties, i would be lying if i said no but for the most part its more about the idea of living your fantasies, to be in a place where it is okay to be yourself and not be judged for your "fetishes", or even to just be someone completely different for a night, or play with people with similar intrests if thats what tickles your fancy. Otherwise you can just dance to some industrial music and meet other open minded people. Fetish parties are to have a safe place to let your fantasies go, not a haven for rapists and deviants, these clubs are made for consentual adults, who if they choose to play use protection it is also a place to simply have fun and socialize. People assume because someone is in the fetish scene that they are promiscuous, well i can put that myth to bed (no pun intended) me and several of my friends in the scene have had less parterns then the majority of people who are "vanilla" in there sex lives. You can embrass your sexuality and be comfortable with it without being a whore. Puritain views of sex is what makes it dirty, we are naturally sexual creatures, and there is nothing wrong with expressing that.