mixed feelings

so i am back in school after a month break. i was dreading going back because of my already hectic schedule, but those feelings have already pretty much been completely replaced. School makes me feel accomplished in a completely different way than making money, and go-go dancing and performing for fetish parties, although i am always using my brain, making moves, and whatnot i love being in the academic environment which is so strange considering in highschool i spent every possible moment i could thinking of a way to get out and then doing so. i am happy with my decision to change my major to teaching social sciences it will be a challenge for me seeing that i am modified and plan on only getting more done, as well as the fact that i have no intentions of abandoning the fetish scene i have grown to become such a part of. i still want to open my own business i just realize with the economy the way it is today, that may not b possible for a while and i would love to teach subjects i am so passionate about and try to make a difference in peoples' lives